the ground you took away from me

I miss feeling important to someone

No one is there to wake me up

I struggle finding my own reasons to

This bed is soft and warm

it takes nothing from me, demands nothing

I'm free to vanish beneath white covers 

blinds drawn, the idea of a sun soothes

I have no one to do with, 

I can't sustain myself

maybe weighing less could help me bear

I have no idea how to get there

I wish their smiles would be enough

that their words left a mark

but alone, everything disappears

impact fades, motivation withers 

blankness is better, no surprises,

I control everything and also nothing.

...

If only this complacency wasn't so out of place

Timing is everything and I've failed.

On the road to successes, you took the ground away

What, I should float? I, like you, am not supernatural

Just give me back what you took from me

those days, hours and minutes that meant nothing to you anyway

give me back the girl you took away in exchange for a friend

She would have no problem getting through 

these weeks of priceless undergraduate research. 

This is definitely where I fought to get

but I can't just move on. 

None of it was alone. Why now? 

~And for goodness sakes you're not dead, what king of sick game is this to do to someone